I wonder why whenever I'm in love with someone, I'll get all weak and shy inside.

I remember last time, whoever that I had a crush on, I will be shy and unable to talk to him. I act unnatural infront of him. I fled whenever he comes. Stupid? Yes, I know.

What's more stupid? Even now, that the one I love most is my boyfriend, I'm still weakly shy. (No I don't fled.)

WTF? FOR HEAVEN SAKES!! YOU GUYS ARE A COUPLE!! WHAT DO YOU MEAN BY YOU'RE SHY?!

BUT I AM!!

If you ask me why, I don't know why either.

I've been troubled by this problem everyday - HOW can I be much more myself infront of nana, ever since last time, when I was single and was having a crush on him. Last time was worse coz I don't even dare to message him on MSN. I had to think twice before sending a message coz I scare he might hate me. I tremble when I talk to him, making me hating myself, asking WTF IS WRONG WITH ME? *slaps myself*

Ok, so now, nana became my boyfriend. Well GUESS WHAT? I'M STILL SHY!!

This makes me hate myself more and more. Like, wtf are you shying for? WTF am I shying for?! I wanna be more of myself!! My fun self!!

I know I'm not perfect, but hey, at least it's me.

BUT I'M NOT EVEN MYSELF.

Why the heck I can act so normally infront of friends, but not infront of him? Scare he don't like ka? WTF HE LOVES YOU WHAT!! SCARE WHAT?!

Darn I'm always talking to myself now. ^^"

I want to act natural infront of him. I want to be myself. I want to be myself!!!!!!

But whenever I saw him... *shys*

*SLAPS*

Ahem. THAT IS WHY, this post is for me, myself, mua, oresama(LOL), to promise myself - I WILL CHANGE. I WILL TRY MY BEST. NO MATTER HOW, I WILL TRY!!

KEI!! BE BRAVER!!

I don't want to regret. If he starts to dislike me coz he thinks I'm bored, then it's my fault.

I...

I love you, my dear nana. O.O,, *darn I'm shy again ><*

 

P/S: SLAP ME IF I'M NOT MYSELF.

Dewa dewa, ichigo keiki deshita. =X
(If you wanna know what's this, ask me myself.)

How's everyone's White Day? It has been lonely for me. T_T I hadn't seen dear for two days already. Miss him so darn much. Sigh, didn't get to celebrate White Day afterall. At least I want to see him...which didn't happened. T_T

Anyway the next day, which is today, I receive something from Kelvin!! O.O

It was suprising. O_O LOL.

Not only I received it, so did Shvon and Tsuey Lih. We've been good friends since the first year of college. We're in the same class. See!! Prove!!

EWW.. UGLY HAIR at First Year.

I remember last time I didn't wanted to join them. I was...shy. LOL. I fear new people. ^^" Hahaha I was scary huh Shvon? XD

Year 2.

However after we started to group together to do assignments, we started to get really close. =D And we're graduating soon, these are maybe presents as a friendship memory. He told us to think this as any present like birthday present, christmas present, valentine's day present, white day present blah blah. T_T *touched* WHITE DAY PRESENT!!!!!! LOL.

Don't want White Day lah, White Day's special. XD

Enough the old memories and here's the present!!

Thedotz!! I wonder what's that.

It's a keychain!! =D

Mind the bad camera resolution.

It has a Boy and Girl Sign and a plate with my name!! XD

I wanted to put a "thank you" picture that has me and the keychain, but both of them came out like this.

 
Where got keychain?

 

So in the end...

Thank you Kelvin!! XD

I love blackouts.

Everytime when blackout comes, I will get darn excited and sleepless. The feeling to sleep is suddenly gone. Weird huh? I love the dark. It's peaceful and nice. X3

BUT NOT WHEN YOU HAVE SCHOOL TOMORROW AND IT LASTED FOR 8 HOURS STARTING FROM MIDNIGHT!!

The only blackout picture I took.

I tried to wait for the electricity to come back. I still remember before the blackout came, I was happily enjoying my Maggie Curry, which I was eager to eat while I had sorethroat. MY DAD LA!! While I couldn't eat anything spicy, he cooked Maggie Curry for supper!! SO EVIL!! ><

Anyway it was on Monday, while I was eating and online-ing happily, suddenly "POP!!"!!

The lights went out.

It take me a few seconds until I realised what was happening. LOL.

I don't mind the blackout, until it started to get hot in here. I AM EATING CURRY FLAVORED MAGGIE HERE!!

After the eating, I went to my balcony to get some air. The feeling it awesome. Imagine, in the dark, peaceful night; feeling the cool breeze while listening soft songs on your mp3 player. The feeling is just...LOVELY.

However, eventhough it's so relaxing and nice and all... I STILL HAVE TO SLEEP BECAUSE OF CLASS RIGHT?! I waited until 2am and the electricity is not back yet!! I have nothing to do but sleep.

I woke up later to find the electricity still not back. I check my handphone's clock and WTF!! IT'S 6:45!!

I went back to sleep with anger. According to my dad, the electricity came back on 8am. DAMN!! Woke up sweaty all over. =_=

 

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I spent alot today. NO, NOT ON COMICS. It's on...

Starbucks. =_=||

I treated my sis Kaede Starbucks - Chocolate Cream Chip. Me myself ordered Ice Blended Caramel(My FAV!!). It cost RM 27. T_T

Later then, I bought eyeliner. RM 16.70. T_T

I bought two Tako Tao too. RM 3.90 + RM3.90 = RM 7.80. T_T

I bought one comic. RM 4.50. =D

What?? Only ONE you ask? Yeah I lied.

I bought three comics yesterday and one comic today, so makes it total of four comics = RM 4 + RM 4 + RM 4.50 + RM 4.50 = RM 17

=D I happy about the comics. =D

So total use? RM 68.50!!

The comics are bought with no regrets. =D

 

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So I bought four comics!!

Yesterday I just feel like buying comic, and so I did. LOL.

Actually there's just ONE that I need to buy, and that is Detective Conan 57. It's new!! =D

However, there's this voice in my mind telling me to buy more!!

So I stood infront of the comic cabinet in the shop, searching for nice comics. My Detective Conan comics are not complete yet, so I bought 46, which contain one of my favourite episode - the one about violins. X3 I noticed another comic, that is "My stubborn Queen". Tell you about that later. I wanted to buy that, but yesterday it didn't had the first book on sale. I went to another comic shop and got another book instead - Strawberry Trap, which is =_=||

 

Detective Conan Book 57: If you don't know about Detective Conan, then I'm suprised. HOW CAN YOU NOT HEARD OF DETECTIVE CONAN?! The storyline is getting much more confusing book by book, but that's why I love it. XD

 

Strawberry Trap(1 book End): I bought it just because I wanted to read something new, and I love strawberries. I didn't know that this book contains...erm...sex scenes. It's about a 16-year-old girl who wants to find love so that she can be as dazzling as her friends(who had sex with their BFs). Then she meets a boy who she immediately fell in love with. However her friends discourage her coz he's known as "The worse guy that ever lived". This didn't stop her from loving him though.

Weird. Does sex really make a girl look dazzling? O.o?

 

My Stubborn Queen Book 1: If you read chinese, you probably will know this. Yeah, it's the comic version of the Korean drama "Gong" or "Princess Hour". The comic is not bad... It's talking about a normal school girl gets to marry a prince - the future king and became the queen because of their grandparent's promise to each other. OMG so fairytale like. LOL. Luckily that prince is good looking, otherwise... ^^"

It's getting lesser and lesser space to put my precious comics. T_T

 

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I think it's been awhile since you guys see my pictures right? LOL.

Here's some.

Looks short hair right? But actually it's tied up due to THE DAMN HOT WEATHER.

There's Kaede(who completely ignores me)!! XD

Apples and orange!! Me don't like apples but... oh well. ^^"

Eating apple... o_o"

 

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When people see my handphone, surely they will ask "not heavy ka?"

My answer is always "No" with a laugh and "Why do people always ask the same question?"

The more phone accesories I have, the more I love!! XD Like last time, it was like this.

Refer here.

Many ka? I think it's normal. =D

This is where I hang all my stuff last time until it broke.

Then I changed to using this, but it broke too today!! ><

Compare to last time, I hang not much.

Many meh? =3=

 

P/S: Happy White Valentine's to all. =) Shiroi bara ga hoshii na~ >< Still didn't get to celebrate White's Day. Haha.....desuu.